Wednesday October 22, 2014
I have at least 3 months of not writing my thoughts, emotions, questions, anything. And the result I feel, is a disconnection between the things that I want and believe in with the things I am actually doing. Even my thoughts are no longer clear. I have doubts, I hold back, I go with others opinions and not my own. Is it that my writing's result is a true exposure of my inner feelings? Of course it is. Is there something I am trying not to answer, question by avoiding it without any writing? I think I do. And today by writing my Learning Agreement, I noticed it. I don't have any clear idea of what I want. I am struggling with this inner wants and desires, with what I know, and with a possibility of living a future here in Barcelona, by doing something extraordinary.
But... who am I kidding? My own thoughts get mixed up when my priorities are not being manifested- that's just that.
What does one gain by not following our own dreams?? Safety, one might think. For me it is a false safety
But... who am I kidding? My own thoughts get mixed up when my priorities are not being manifested- that's just that.
What does one gain by not following our own dreams?? Safety, one might think. For me it is a false safety
Monday Nov. 3, 2014
Ask yourself with honesty
What is your worst fear?
What is the worse that can happen to you today?
As I asked myself these questions, not even death was an option for my worse fears. Is that even possible I thought? My worst fear is not dying?? Huh. What is it then?
After thinking for a while I knew what it was. But once I reviewed it in my head I knew it was stupid, that it was not the worst that could happen to me. Ok negation could be one reaction that can obstruct you from seeing reality- but the way that I act does reflect my fear.
In this moment you are probably thinking on my own fear, and die to know which one it is. But I would like you to change that focus on yourself, and think about your own fear. What actions you do each day that builds a barrier to express your true self.
I have discovered that there’s this image that we try to protect whenever we share who we are with those who know us. Is it because they know our backgrounds, where we have failed, were we have achieved, and that automatically limits us to project an image that will interrupt a preconceived idea of who we are?
The most important of the previous questions is not the answer that we will obtain, but the awareness we’ll start to develop focusing on ourselves. Whenever we are in our daily routines and are about to do our patterns of behavior, there will be a little voice in our heads that will say “try things out differently today”, expect nothing from others reactions to what you have to say. The person who listens to that voice is most propel to make significant changes in his decision-making.
Be proud for yourself. For the things you do and the things you want to accomplish. I have heard it so many times in my life; to have confidence in oneself. But think honestly every moment you can- up to what point my reactions reflect the values I sustain in my life?
What is the worse that can happen to you today?
As I asked myself these questions, not even death was an option for my worse fears. Is that even possible I thought? My worst fear is not dying?? Huh. What is it then?
After thinking for a while I knew what it was. But once I reviewed it in my head I knew it was stupid, that it was not the worst that could happen to me. Ok negation could be one reaction that can obstruct you from seeing reality- but the way that I act does reflect my fear.
In this moment you are probably thinking on my own fear, and die to know which one it is. But I would like you to change that focus on yourself, and think about your own fear. What actions you do each day that builds a barrier to express your true self.
I have discovered that there’s this image that we try to protect whenever we share who we are with those who know us. Is it because they know our backgrounds, where we have failed, were we have achieved, and that automatically limits us to project an image that will interrupt a preconceived idea of who we are?
The most important of the previous questions is not the answer that we will obtain, but the awareness we’ll start to develop focusing on ourselves. Whenever we are in our daily routines and are about to do our patterns of behavior, there will be a little voice in our heads that will say “try things out differently today”, expect nothing from others reactions to what you have to say. The person who listens to that voice is most propel to make significant changes in his decision-making.
Be proud for yourself. For the things you do and the things you want to accomplish. I have heard it so many times in my life; to have confidence in oneself. But think honestly every moment you can- up to what point my reactions reflect the values I sustain in my life?
Tuesday Nov. 4th, 2014
Your own revolution
I think most of the time we are so focused on what others do wrong that we barely see what areas in our lives could improve. If we use the same energy and time having negative thoughts on others, on being appreciative with others, I bet our lives would feel much lighter and much grateful. When we don’t expect from others, but rather take the initiative to take such responsibility on ourselves it’s because something inside us gets annoyed whenever we do the same exact thing as others do ‘’wrong’’.
My focus on today’s reflection is on this constant complaining about what others should do and how we influence our present. As I was preparing my schedule for the week, I started hearing a noise outside the balcony. I couldn’t understand where the noise came from. But as soon as I saw my neighbor’s outside hitting frying pans I was shocked and thought at first this must be a tradition on Nov.4th, a type of V for Vandetta revolution… As curiosity lead me to the social network Twitter, the most immediate news around the world, I found out it was a Catalan expression that they are ready for Nov. 9th to vote that Catalunya must be an independent and separate state from Spain.
Do you think it is convenient, that in the 21st century, apparently human’s choice is to separate and work in isolation, rather than working in collaboration with one another? It seems that we are having a hard time understanding others and coming into third party solutions, that we choose to play safe under our own ideals.
As I see this decisions and takes on others in political decisions, I reflect it on myself, and the things I am doing. Most of the time, I am very closed to my way of thinking without taking into consideration others opinions. I don’t know why this is, but I can guess it is because one treats his ideals as the ultimate truth, which falsely we believe it leads us to obtaining recognition, therefore it creates security.
If security is all that we are into, we need to start being more responsible with our present decisions and how it affects others and our environment. We need to become conscious that no one but ourselves will create a strength of security from our actions, which are in align with our values.
If there’s a way we could say our opinions and don’t feel attacked, criticized or bad about what others express– I would completely choose that. Therefore, don’t be one who critizes others, or remains quit because of fear to be critized.
My focus on today’s reflection is on this constant complaining about what others should do and how we influence our present. As I was preparing my schedule for the week, I started hearing a noise outside the balcony. I couldn’t understand where the noise came from. But as soon as I saw my neighbor’s outside hitting frying pans I was shocked and thought at first this must be a tradition on Nov.4th, a type of V for Vandetta revolution… As curiosity lead me to the social network Twitter, the most immediate news around the world, I found out it was a Catalan expression that they are ready for Nov. 9th to vote that Catalunya must be an independent and separate state from Spain.
Do you think it is convenient, that in the 21st century, apparently human’s choice is to separate and work in isolation, rather than working in collaboration with one another? It seems that we are having a hard time understanding others and coming into third party solutions, that we choose to play safe under our own ideals.
As I see this decisions and takes on others in political decisions, I reflect it on myself, and the things I am doing. Most of the time, I am very closed to my way of thinking without taking into consideration others opinions. I don’t know why this is, but I can guess it is because one treats his ideals as the ultimate truth, which falsely we believe it leads us to obtaining recognition, therefore it creates security.
If security is all that we are into, we need to start being more responsible with our present decisions and how it affects others and our environment. We need to become conscious that no one but ourselves will create a strength of security from our actions, which are in align with our values.
If there’s a way we could say our opinions and don’t feel attacked, criticized or bad about what others express– I would completely choose that. Therefore, don’t be one who critizes others, or remains quit because of fear to be critized.
Wednesday Nov. 5th, 2014
In a quest
Today it was much better, more organized than yesterday. I did my exercise as soon as I settled home and I was here around 6:30 which was good given that I did left at 6ish from the office.
Sometimes, you don’t want to write about anything because you are so physically exhausted that nothing positive comes out from your thoughts. I only know that yesterday I was lead by my fear and my reactions that my whole body felt the warmth of the moment. Being able to express with grace what we fear, and whats deeply engrained within us is an art. Which I expect to master by the end of my semester. Most of the time I do get carry out by my emotions because I feel threatened and not understood. I think, if for a moment the other person could see things with my eyes and not his with judgement, everything would make sense for them. But it is not for them that things need to make sense, but for me. If my reality is not making sense for me now, I must question it and how I influence my actions.
So many things go on in my head when I listen to others having conversations, that I am absent and loose interest of what they are saying because in reality they are not communicating most of the time. They ask what needs to be asked. What’s commonly acceptable by others. But we shut down what really interests us from the other person. Why is this? What are we protecting? Or fearing?
It seems like I am in the quest for searching something, and that something scares me quite a bit. But I am putting all my effort and energy in trying to find the results I like it or not my quest has already begun.
Sometimes, you don’t want to write about anything because you are so physically exhausted that nothing positive comes out from your thoughts. I only know that yesterday I was lead by my fear and my reactions that my whole body felt the warmth of the moment. Being able to express with grace what we fear, and whats deeply engrained within us is an art. Which I expect to master by the end of my semester. Most of the time I do get carry out by my emotions because I feel threatened and not understood. I think, if for a moment the other person could see things with my eyes and not his with judgement, everything would make sense for them. But it is not for them that things need to make sense, but for me. If my reality is not making sense for me now, I must question it and how I influence my actions.
So many things go on in my head when I listen to others having conversations, that I am absent and loose interest of what they are saying because in reality they are not communicating most of the time. They ask what needs to be asked. What’s commonly acceptable by others. But we shut down what really interests us from the other person. Why is this? What are we protecting? Or fearing?
It seems like I am in the quest for searching something, and that something scares me quite a bit. But I am putting all my effort and energy in trying to find the results I like it or not my quest has already begun.
Thursday Nov. 6, 2014
Constant Observation
How we sit down, how we talk of ourselves, how we express of others, of our experiences, of our thoughts, of should have's, should have been's, always communicate whom we are, and what we value. We must be so careful, with how we welcome new experiences, how we analyze situations, because you never know when your reactions can cause an impact unto others. With your words and actions which goes hand in hand, one after the other – one must always think how we are adding value to others and how everything that is being transmitted from ourselves unto others is being taken. We must learn to read people, to go a step further, and at the end of a conversation make them discover something about themselves that was there but unseen for their own ignorance and limitations.
We must first see what fears we have of our own, how we read people, how we are perceived by others, our filters that determine our own set of values.
Most importantly, understand that everyone does what they do based on their knowledge, experiences, and fears – and we are in no position to tell them they are wrong or rather humiliating them to the point that its our own fear and insecurities speaking.
Therefore, if you speak bad of others, it shows how deeply you hate yourself, and most probably all those things you hate from the other person, is all you have for yourself. Show others, the beauty of love, the beauty of trust, and truth and honesty as the pure expression of your authenticity. Expect nothing from others- expect everything from all experiences.
But most importantly, be aware, observe yourself in every environment, in every situation, how you react to new experiences, and what holds yourself from doing such actions, what is preventing your authenticity to spring? Is it others? Is it only you?
-Whatever you do don't doubt yourself because of others - Ayn Rand.
We must first see what fears we have of our own, how we read people, how we are perceived by others, our filters that determine our own set of values.
Most importantly, understand that everyone does what they do based on their knowledge, experiences, and fears – and we are in no position to tell them they are wrong or rather humiliating them to the point that its our own fear and insecurities speaking.
Therefore, if you speak bad of others, it shows how deeply you hate yourself, and most probably all those things you hate from the other person, is all you have for yourself. Show others, the beauty of love, the beauty of trust, and truth and honesty as the pure expression of your authenticity. Expect nothing from others- expect everything from all experiences.
But most importantly, be aware, observe yourself in every environment, in every situation, how you react to new experiences, and what holds yourself from doing such actions, what is preventing your authenticity to spring? Is it others? Is it only you?
-Whatever you do don't doubt yourself because of others - Ayn Rand.
Sunday November 9th, 2014
Personal Awareness Launching
I am beyond happiness today!!! I was able to finally share something I enjoy with others. It was the first day of Personal Awareness course. We were 5 in total. Something that at first worried me, stop when I heard the quality and engagement and synergy of the people engaged in the conversation. I was amazed that everyone was very thankful to me to have created this space for them to become better people in their ordinary life. I want that more than anything I realize now, to influence ordinary people with ordinary life and show them the importance of living a life of meaning were their decisions and actions go hand in hand with their values. If there are more conscious individuals sure about what they want to do for their own happiness, we will have more individuals creating more value to others, and therefore to the world. And that is some place that I want to live. We need to have the courage to go with the character we want to forge for ourselves, so no one else decides for us our present neither or future. We need to reflect each day on how much of the things we did, were because we wanted them to happen or if someone else decided for us our actions. I am now in a position were I cannot go on my own way much because there is a standard to be expected and my role in the work is specific. That is the reason that I’ve decided to go along with a new challenge to dedicate 20 minutes each day to learn about something that interests me, and write a reflection of a sentence about it afterwards. There I will feel I am doing things for me also, besides gaining more knowledge.
I am excited for the members of my course, who have signed up because they believe there a better version of themselves and they are responsible for taking the challenge. I expect as much as if its my own challenge that they learn all they can from themselves and their actions. I want to spread the importance of personal awareness throughout the world and how our actions are linked to responsibility.
So cheers to a new endeavor, that will influence many to a life of their dreams.
I am excited for the members of my course, who have signed up because they believe there a better version of themselves and they are responsible for taking the challenge. I expect as much as if its my own challenge that they learn all they can from themselves and their actions. I want to spread the importance of personal awareness throughout the world and how our actions are linked to responsibility.
So cheers to a new endeavor, that will influence many to a life of their dreams.
Monday Nov. 10, 2014
We work with the soul
Today as first day of my challenge I decided to learn more about India the country and their culture through a documentary. I was really open to what to expect. As it started, it was like my preconceived ideas about India were spoken out loud by the documentary. The ordinary description you might think about India- is colorful, yoga, meditation, curry, and of course, poor. And yes it is all that, but not only. In India I learned that people talk from the heart, they express their spirits to one another and they believe spirituality to be the based for an education. As there are many people suffering because they barely have water to drink, they lives their lives in another dimension, not physical, but spiritual. They no longer suffer because they lack something, they are grateful with what they have, and are willing to share the few with whoever asks for it. They say India is the mother country, and it is why they feel they are very grounded to their roots.
“People adapt themselves to their surroundings, they create their own values and rules but some values can be found everywhere”. Which values is the documentary talking about? Would those values be about what is that we all look forward to? For me it is a life of happiness in peace and in accordance with our values, which seems a natural state for human beings all around the world to search for satisfaction, commodity, and happiness. To attain this happiness we need to explore it by ourselves, and understand that happiness means to reflect our inner joy – that comes only when we take decisions based on our values. Not based on someone elses.
“People adapt themselves to their surroundings, they create their own values and rules but some values can be found everywhere”. Which values is the documentary talking about? Would those values be about what is that we all look forward to? For me it is a life of happiness in peace and in accordance with our values, which seems a natural state for human beings all around the world to search for satisfaction, commodity, and happiness. To attain this happiness we need to explore it by ourselves, and understand that happiness means to reflect our inner joy – that comes only when we take decisions based on our values. Not based on someone elses.
Tuesday Nov. 11, 2014
Fantasy Future
Today I am going to reflect about the sole meaning of fear, what it means to me and what I understand others to say about it. Because fear is a feeling we all share as humans, some to a greater degree than others. But from where have we received this information from, and how is it that we all share it. Is it hereditary, evolutionary, or independent learning? In no way I am trying to come with a definite answer for this, my purpose is to explore and be open to the various fields fear can be originated from, and how that awareness can help us in our advance.
When I place myself back into the feelings I usually get when I have fear, or fearful thoughts this is what goes on in my head – fictional results of the future, different scenarios of how I will approach the experience, past experiences, comments, judgments all from before.
And why is it that I rely more on past experiences and feelings that not always result positively rather than on my present, my faith and future success? What is that which limits us from experiencing and embarking new challenges? Fear must be useful, there is a reason why we have it in our nature. Some I’ve heard is to protect ourselves from danger. Also, there might be a reason why we don’t know what our deaths will be like. Does this seem like a connection to you? If the sole reason of fear will be protecting us from danger = death, then there will be no point in trying out new and different things because we will be challenging death every second of our lives. But for most of our decisions that lean towards new experiences, death or life are not something that we play with. We play with reputation, self- image, criticism. Mundane emotions that are based on fearful feelings based on the past. It is quite difficult to understand things to be this way, because we have lived through all of our years, accepting those flaws of us, and barely changing them because we haven’t become truly aware of those emotions.
The conclusion that I have come to is to begin this awareness into when I stop my actions because of fear, or anything without any foundation at all. And notice those patterns of my life. And instead of just observing, acting towards proving the contrary to my fantasies results.
When I place myself back into the feelings I usually get when I have fear, or fearful thoughts this is what goes on in my head – fictional results of the future, different scenarios of how I will approach the experience, past experiences, comments, judgments all from before.
And why is it that I rely more on past experiences and feelings that not always result positively rather than on my present, my faith and future success? What is that which limits us from experiencing and embarking new challenges? Fear must be useful, there is a reason why we have it in our nature. Some I’ve heard is to protect ourselves from danger. Also, there might be a reason why we don’t know what our deaths will be like. Does this seem like a connection to you? If the sole reason of fear will be protecting us from danger = death, then there will be no point in trying out new and different things because we will be challenging death every second of our lives. But for most of our decisions that lean towards new experiences, death or life are not something that we play with. We play with reputation, self- image, criticism. Mundane emotions that are based on fearful feelings based on the past. It is quite difficult to understand things to be this way, because we have lived through all of our years, accepting those flaws of us, and barely changing them because we haven’t become truly aware of those emotions.
The conclusion that I have come to is to begin this awareness into when I stop my actions because of fear, or anything without any foundation at all. And notice those patterns of my life. And instead of just observing, acting towards proving the contrary to my fantasies results.
Wednesday Nov. 12, 2014
See how every moment is connected to your WHY.
I was once again brought back exactly today- to the question of my why. As a child we were curious by nature, everything around us was new and confusing, and had only one word to unlock a possibility of answers, why. Someone more knowledgeable than ourselves took the responsibility to explain it to us. And that was how life was -we asked we received answers and accepted them as the norm.
With time, our parents got a little bored of listening too much whys., so they rather ignored us, or said that they didn’t had the answer for everything. But how could it be, if they provided us with anything, they were like angels giving away exactly what we needed.
There has to come a moment – don’t know when, adolescent years most probably were you don’t listen to your parents because you think you just know more than them. So you stop asking them, and start asking others, those others are your friends. Your friends who accept you just the way you are, the friends that have great plans for you on the weekends, and you start giving more power to them and their opinions than anything else.
But all those are stages of life. Because to reach to a point were we ask not our parents, our friends, but rather ourselves we have to first know what we don’t want to be to know what we want to become.
Every moment in our life determines the next and the next and the next. For every action there is an equal or opposite reaction. We know that by physics. But spiritually? Does it apply also? We need to become more conscious of our every decisions and actions, to listen more to that inner voice that simply knows what something is right or something is wrong. Become aware to the reasoning you give when you try to convince yourself that something is good for you. What words do you use? But.. and..? I deserve… all those words are exactly justifying against what you truly value. And the mind is dangerous as it is holy. Who is in control of the mind, is it integrated as a whole in accordance with your values or is it living rush for what might be presented next. Do you have a plan of action towards your why or is there no planning, not a heads up, not precautions, not limitations, not personal restrictions for a bigger purpose?
How will I be of an influence upon others, if I don’t transfer my own conditions, I am not able to demonstrate others what are my workings? Who's stopping me? Is it myself only?
With time, our parents got a little bored of listening too much whys., so they rather ignored us, or said that they didn’t had the answer for everything. But how could it be, if they provided us with anything, they were like angels giving away exactly what we needed.
There has to come a moment – don’t know when, adolescent years most probably were you don’t listen to your parents because you think you just know more than them. So you stop asking them, and start asking others, those others are your friends. Your friends who accept you just the way you are, the friends that have great plans for you on the weekends, and you start giving more power to them and their opinions than anything else.
But all those are stages of life. Because to reach to a point were we ask not our parents, our friends, but rather ourselves we have to first know what we don’t want to be to know what we want to become.
Every moment in our life determines the next and the next and the next. For every action there is an equal or opposite reaction. We know that by physics. But spiritually? Does it apply also? We need to become more conscious of our every decisions and actions, to listen more to that inner voice that simply knows what something is right or something is wrong. Become aware to the reasoning you give when you try to convince yourself that something is good for you. What words do you use? But.. and..? I deserve… all those words are exactly justifying against what you truly value. And the mind is dangerous as it is holy. Who is in control of the mind, is it integrated as a whole in accordance with your values or is it living rush for what might be presented next. Do you have a plan of action towards your why or is there no planning, not a heads up, not precautions, not limitations, not personal restrictions for a bigger purpose?
How will I be of an influence upon others, if I don’t transfer my own conditions, I am not able to demonstrate others what are my workings? Who's stopping me? Is it myself only?
Thursday Nov. 13, 2014
I base my decisions on momentary happiness
No tengo la menor idea de porque es que los días que dejo de cumplir mi promesa, me distancio de mi ser. De mis valores o ideales. Es como que si ni siquiera me quisiera ver al espejo por vergüenza a ver todos los errores.
Ya han pasado dos días del jueves que fue el día que falle a mi promesa, y hasta ahora me siento con el ‘’deber’’ de darme una explicación del porque no lo hice. Del reconocer que tome malas decisiones, una tras otra, y pensaba que lo otro me iba a traer mas felicidad y mas felicidad y no iba a poder saciarme. Lo que me trajo no fue mas felicidad si no solo arrepentimiento. El ponerme en una perspectiva de tomar decisiones de si o no, me confunde. Pienso que si digo que si – soy la persona que el grupo de personas con el que estoy estaría feliz, y es la imagen que tienen de mi. Ya si digo que no, entonces esa imagen que tenían de mi ya no lo es – y por lo tanto ya no soy esa persona alegre, fiestera que cae bien.
Me da tristeza, hasta vergüenza escribir esto, por que dentro de mi sé muy bien que no es eso lo que quiero. No es caerle bien a los demás siendo la persona que ellos quieren que sea. Quiero caerles bien por la persona que soy – indiferentemente a la imagen que tengan o quieran tener de mi. Les doy mas importancia a los demás , que a mi misma. Quisiera como complacer a todos, y no a mi. Quisiera que los demás tuvieran felicidad y tenerla yo – momentánea. O basarme en un tipo de felicidad pasajera, que trae felicidad ficticia, sin fundamentos o valor, que posiblemente al día siguiente ya no sería considerada una alegría, por que ya no hay recuerdo de tal emoción.
¿Por qué estoy prefiriendo esto, a lo que realmente me trae mas alegría de la pura?
¿Qué parte de mi quiero dejar a un lado, y cuál no quiero afrontar?
¿Miedo a que le tengo?
Ya han pasado dos días del jueves que fue el día que falle a mi promesa, y hasta ahora me siento con el ‘’deber’’ de darme una explicación del porque no lo hice. Del reconocer que tome malas decisiones, una tras otra, y pensaba que lo otro me iba a traer mas felicidad y mas felicidad y no iba a poder saciarme. Lo que me trajo no fue mas felicidad si no solo arrepentimiento. El ponerme en una perspectiva de tomar decisiones de si o no, me confunde. Pienso que si digo que si – soy la persona que el grupo de personas con el que estoy estaría feliz, y es la imagen que tienen de mi. Ya si digo que no, entonces esa imagen que tenían de mi ya no lo es – y por lo tanto ya no soy esa persona alegre, fiestera que cae bien.
Me da tristeza, hasta vergüenza escribir esto, por que dentro de mi sé muy bien que no es eso lo que quiero. No es caerle bien a los demás siendo la persona que ellos quieren que sea. Quiero caerles bien por la persona que soy – indiferentemente a la imagen que tengan o quieran tener de mi. Les doy mas importancia a los demás , que a mi misma. Quisiera como complacer a todos, y no a mi. Quisiera que los demás tuvieran felicidad y tenerla yo – momentánea. O basarme en un tipo de felicidad pasajera, que trae felicidad ficticia, sin fundamentos o valor, que posiblemente al día siguiente ya no sería considerada una alegría, por que ya no hay recuerdo de tal emoción.
¿Por qué estoy prefiriendo esto, a lo que realmente me trae mas alegría de la pura?
¿Qué parte de mi quiero dejar a un lado, y cuál no quiero afrontar?
¿Miedo a que le tengo?
Friday Nov. 14, 2014
What do I value?
No entiendo que estoy haciendo, literalmente las acciones que estoy tomando y porque las estoy haciendo de esa manera. Pienso que no van en línea con mis valores. Pero posiblemente y no tengo valores, no valoro nada o valoro todo. Todo lo que esta a mi disposición, o que los demás lo ponen para mi. Pero que algo haya descubierto yo y le de ese valor que se merece, con respeto, muy pocas cosas si no ninguna.
Ahora que lo pienso valoro la verdad, pero pocas veces la practico. Valoro el amor, pero pocas veces lo demuestro. Valoro el esfuerzo, pero pocas veces lo agradezco. Valoro la curiosidad, pero pocas veces la alimento. Valoro el respeto pero pocas veces lo tomo enserio. Valoro el crecimiento, pero pocas veces recibo humildemente el feedback. Valoro las tradiciones, pero no tengo ninguna. Valoro la autenticidad, pero no siempre sigo lo que mas quiero. Valoro el deporte pero no practico con constancia ninguno. Valoro la fe, pero no la practico. Valoro la naturaleza pero no la respiro.
Adopto mucho de las demás personas, valoro la opinión de los demás mas que la mía propia. Tomo decisiones en estados emocionales temporales, que a la largo no me traen beneficio, si no mas carga emocional. Lo estoy empezando a reconocer y posiblemente ese sea el primer paso a cambiar lo que no me gusta. Pero en realidad tendría que tomar acciones puntuales, pero me da miedo el compromiso, por miedo a no cumplirlo, a fallarme a mi misma. Nos damos cuenta que por necesidad empezamos a cambiar nuestras acciones y pensamientos. La necesidad que estoy empezando a sentir es sentirme bien conmigo misma, mis pensamientos y acciones que estén alienadas hacia el gran propósito que quiero alcanzar, o por lo menos empezar ese proceso en serio, con una mente madura y decisiones con carácter. Es como que si estuviera jugando juegos, y no quisiera que terminaran porque pienso que terminaría una etapa de mi vida por otra muy diferente.
El punto final, es pensar cual me trae mas beneficio, y mas alegría?
¿Como que si fuera tan fácil, no?
Ahora que lo pienso valoro la verdad, pero pocas veces la practico. Valoro el amor, pero pocas veces lo demuestro. Valoro el esfuerzo, pero pocas veces lo agradezco. Valoro la curiosidad, pero pocas veces la alimento. Valoro el respeto pero pocas veces lo tomo enserio. Valoro el crecimiento, pero pocas veces recibo humildemente el feedback. Valoro las tradiciones, pero no tengo ninguna. Valoro la autenticidad, pero no siempre sigo lo que mas quiero. Valoro el deporte pero no practico con constancia ninguno. Valoro la fe, pero no la practico. Valoro la naturaleza pero no la respiro.
Adopto mucho de las demás personas, valoro la opinión de los demás mas que la mía propia. Tomo decisiones en estados emocionales temporales, que a la largo no me traen beneficio, si no mas carga emocional. Lo estoy empezando a reconocer y posiblemente ese sea el primer paso a cambiar lo que no me gusta. Pero en realidad tendría que tomar acciones puntuales, pero me da miedo el compromiso, por miedo a no cumplirlo, a fallarme a mi misma. Nos damos cuenta que por necesidad empezamos a cambiar nuestras acciones y pensamientos. La necesidad que estoy empezando a sentir es sentirme bien conmigo misma, mis pensamientos y acciones que estén alienadas hacia el gran propósito que quiero alcanzar, o por lo menos empezar ese proceso en serio, con una mente madura y decisiones con carácter. Es como que si estuviera jugando juegos, y no quisiera que terminaran porque pienso que terminaría una etapa de mi vida por otra muy diferente.
El punto final, es pensar cual me trae mas beneficio, y mas alegría?
¿Como que si fuera tan fácil, no?
Monday Nov. 17, 2014
Las preguntas de hoy.
Digo que voy hacer una cosa, o que voy a estar mas pendiente para no cometer los mismos errores. Y simplemente no puedo, entonces me pregunto que si realmente lo que me propongo es lo que quiero. Creo que tengo que entender lo motivos del porque estoy haciendo varios actos concurrentes y pensar si es que aprendo algo de mis errores.
Cual es mi mayor incentivo para cambiar?
Cuales son la opciones que tengo?
Que es lo que quiero cambiar? Y por que lo tendría que cambiar?
Quienes no apoyan mi manera de ser ahora?
Porque tengo que cambiar, si me siento bien siendo yo ahora?
Que es ser una persona madura, para quien?
Que gano estando yo sola?
Que gano estando en mi relación?
Que son las acciones que estoy haciendo que están mal?
Si no tengo la sensación en ciertos momentos de comunicarme, es por que no hay interés – o porque no quiero compartir?
Si no hay conexión entonces que queda?
Estoy conociendome y estoy tomando decisiones por mi, no por lo que se supone que tenemos.
No me gusta el compromiso.
Quiero comprometerme conmigo misma y no por manipulación de que tengo que cambiar.
Pienso que si alguien te quiere cambiar esta siendo egoista y no respetando tu proceso de aprendizaje. Por que si yo se que quiero cambiar es porque he experimentado situaciones que me han afectado de tal manera que veo la necesidad de cambiar. Si no, iria en contra de mi propia naturaleza?
Cual es mi mayor incentivo para cambiar?
Cuales son la opciones que tengo?
Que es lo que quiero cambiar? Y por que lo tendría que cambiar?
Quienes no apoyan mi manera de ser ahora?
Porque tengo que cambiar, si me siento bien siendo yo ahora?
Que es ser una persona madura, para quien?
Que gano estando yo sola?
Que gano estando en mi relación?
Que son las acciones que estoy haciendo que están mal?
Si no tengo la sensación en ciertos momentos de comunicarme, es por que no hay interés – o porque no quiero compartir?
Si no hay conexión entonces que queda?
Estoy conociendome y estoy tomando decisiones por mi, no por lo que se supone que tenemos.
No me gusta el compromiso.
Quiero comprometerme conmigo misma y no por manipulación de que tengo que cambiar.
Pienso que si alguien te quiere cambiar esta siendo egoista y no respetando tu proceso de aprendizaje. Por que si yo se que quiero cambiar es porque he experimentado situaciones que me han afectado de tal manera que veo la necesidad de cambiar. Si no, iria en contra de mi propia naturaleza?
Nov. 18th, 2014
Where you heading to?
2 months away from departure and I've never had so many decision making on my own in my entire life- I think this is how it feels to be a grown up. No one to ask, but yourself.
One options gives me the security of a life with happiness in the sense of "security", cultural knowledge, diversity of friendships, permanent jobs, easy living.
The other option offers me struggle moving from one place to another, fear of being harmed, not receiving proper rights, close to family, having house keeping more under control, working life - unknown but definitely something related to objectivist and future success.
Both bring me uncertainty and certainty.
Are they both correct?
Is one of them better than the other one?
What is my ultimate search, and where is it most probable that I'll pursue it?
Ahhh... Why is it so hard, and what's stopping me to make a decision already?
What strenght am i trusting that is greater than my own?
I need to commit to my own happiness fully.
In what things I want to succeed?
Bring more joy to that area of my life- rather than seeing it as a struggle, negativity and control. Our success will come when we commit to our happiness.
What I am afraid of?
Not exceeding my own fears. Staying as if my emotions are not with me, but with someone else, nor really feeling identified with myself, and experiences. My fear is to become an expectator of my life and not the one who takes it by the wheel. Blaah. This all this is temporary. I am sure that in a couple of months, years, this will be a decisive yes, but another step of my life which I might be right, either way I am going to reach wherever I am destined to get. It might take me longer, with this past decisions, but it will not take me far if I stay acting this way, like without a purpose but just living for the existence of life., not for the passion I can get out of every second. I am losing myself whenever I am not with my center.
Things will be ok. Just trust the struggles, and defy them with consciousness and purpose. Everything will be as you’ve desired. Because you are making things work for you. As you always has. I've heard so many times, that we have one purpose, and we might take the longest road to get there and we will go around it, but all roads will take you to your purpose one way or another. So trust the journey.
One options gives me the security of a life with happiness in the sense of "security", cultural knowledge, diversity of friendships, permanent jobs, easy living.
The other option offers me struggle moving from one place to another, fear of being harmed, not receiving proper rights, close to family, having house keeping more under control, working life - unknown but definitely something related to objectivist and future success.
Both bring me uncertainty and certainty.
Are they both correct?
Is one of them better than the other one?
What is my ultimate search, and where is it most probable that I'll pursue it?
Ahhh... Why is it so hard, and what's stopping me to make a decision already?
What strenght am i trusting that is greater than my own?
I need to commit to my own happiness fully.
In what things I want to succeed?
Bring more joy to that area of my life- rather than seeing it as a struggle, negativity and control. Our success will come when we commit to our happiness.
What I am afraid of?
Not exceeding my own fears. Staying as if my emotions are not with me, but with someone else, nor really feeling identified with myself, and experiences. My fear is to become an expectator of my life and not the one who takes it by the wheel. Blaah. This all this is temporary. I am sure that in a couple of months, years, this will be a decisive yes, but another step of my life which I might be right, either way I am going to reach wherever I am destined to get. It might take me longer, with this past decisions, but it will not take me far if I stay acting this way, like without a purpose but just living for the existence of life., not for the passion I can get out of every second. I am losing myself whenever I am not with my center.
Things will be ok. Just trust the struggles, and defy them with consciousness and purpose. Everything will be as you’ve desired. Because you are making things work for you. As you always has. I've heard so many times, that we have one purpose, and we might take the longest road to get there and we will go around it, but all roads will take you to your purpose one way or another. So trust the journey.
Nov. 19, 2014
From deep inside
Las primeras palabras pueden ser las mas reveladoras. En el sentido que refleja lo mas profundo del ser. Del ser que estoy viviendo ahora. En mi presente. No en mi cabeza, el que se imagina millones de “pudieran o que pasaría si” del futuro, o los hubieran del pasado. ¿Qué emociones estoy sintiendo ahorita que me hace tomar la decisión hacia lo que yo mas valoro, o quiero para mi vida?
Una cosa es ser indecisa, la otra es tener juicio ético, y reevaluar constantemente, tomar decisiones, asumir responsabilidades, reevaluar y otra vez.
Quiero felicidad, alcanzar lo que mas quiero a través de mi propio éxito. Como consigo mi propio éxito? Fijándome metas realistas, a corto mediano y largo plazo con pruebas si ha sido exitoso o no. Sea donde sea que este, ya sea en Barcelona, Guatemala, o la China, yo puedo alcanzar mi objetivo porque mi objetivo es universal y no necesita de nacionalidades.
Al yo hacer lo que me apasiona y me trae mas felicidad, sera automáticamente un iman hacia las personas que encuentren valioso mi sistema y se quieran agregar. No quiero depender de mi estado de animo en las demas presonas, ni que las demas personas me pongan su reglas del juego. Quiero formar parte de la creación de tales reglas tanto como el que participará conmigo en el juego. Quiero tener carácter. Fuerte de convicción. Que sabe lo que quiere, porque tiene la seguridad de que cualquier dificultad la sobrepasara con el fin de llegar a su objetivo final. Que puede evolucionar siempre y cuando se haya reevaluado las opciones presentes con juicio de valor.
Digo que esto es hoy, porque mañana también es esto, por que todos mis días de ahora en adelante serán mi hoy. Porque quiero vivir mi hoy como si es el día para decidir mi futuro al hacer lo que me proponga. Quiero ser capaz de tener la seguridad de que lo que digo lo voy a cumplir porque tengo que ser yo la que decido el porque si y el porque no de mis acciones y motivaciones. No permitir que alguien o algo externo a mi lo influya. Ya basta de eso, y de pensar que tengo que depender en alguien que sabe mas que yo a tomar el rumbo de mi vida. Es mi vida, mis valores, mis decisiones y mi futuro y va a ir hacia donde yo quiera girar el timón. Si decido algo es porque tengo mis razones objetivas no emocionales. Si decido irme es porque le encuentro mas valor a alguien o algo, que a lo que Barcelona me pueda ofrecer en sensaciones momentáneas o pasajeras, o sin el sentido de porque o para que. Si no tengo a la persona que comparte mis alegrías tanto como mis fracasos, nada de lo que yo haga tiene la misma importancia solo para mi que cuando comparto con esta persona. Se me cierra la garganta de tantas emociones acumuladas con esta persona. Las lagrimas me salen como pleno tsunami, son inevitables. Momentos que tenían tanto significado, miradas que tenían tantas palabras, besos que tenían tanta seguridad, en nadie mas las he encontrado. Las tenían las tuvieron, las volverán a tener, cuando tu y yo nos volvamos a ver. Entre mas días pasan, mas me olvido de tu presencia, y es la presencia mía la que también olvido. Tu sacas lo mejor de mi, así como yo saco en ti lo mejor de ti, y eso siempre será así hasta el día que se decida querer. En cuanto al área de amor – estoy sin saber la respuesta de que si hacemos todo esto por amor hacia el otro ser humano - o por amor de pasión. Por que puede que hayan dos opciones de amor- una de amigos que se desean lo mejor el uno al otro – o del tipo de amor que da la vida el uno por el otro. -todo depende de cual decida yo tener, no?
Una cosa es ser indecisa, la otra es tener juicio ético, y reevaluar constantemente, tomar decisiones, asumir responsabilidades, reevaluar y otra vez.
Quiero felicidad, alcanzar lo que mas quiero a través de mi propio éxito. Como consigo mi propio éxito? Fijándome metas realistas, a corto mediano y largo plazo con pruebas si ha sido exitoso o no. Sea donde sea que este, ya sea en Barcelona, Guatemala, o la China, yo puedo alcanzar mi objetivo porque mi objetivo es universal y no necesita de nacionalidades.
Al yo hacer lo que me apasiona y me trae mas felicidad, sera automáticamente un iman hacia las personas que encuentren valioso mi sistema y se quieran agregar. No quiero depender de mi estado de animo en las demas presonas, ni que las demas personas me pongan su reglas del juego. Quiero formar parte de la creación de tales reglas tanto como el que participará conmigo en el juego. Quiero tener carácter. Fuerte de convicción. Que sabe lo que quiere, porque tiene la seguridad de que cualquier dificultad la sobrepasara con el fin de llegar a su objetivo final. Que puede evolucionar siempre y cuando se haya reevaluado las opciones presentes con juicio de valor.
Digo que esto es hoy, porque mañana también es esto, por que todos mis días de ahora en adelante serán mi hoy. Porque quiero vivir mi hoy como si es el día para decidir mi futuro al hacer lo que me proponga. Quiero ser capaz de tener la seguridad de que lo que digo lo voy a cumplir porque tengo que ser yo la que decido el porque si y el porque no de mis acciones y motivaciones. No permitir que alguien o algo externo a mi lo influya. Ya basta de eso, y de pensar que tengo que depender en alguien que sabe mas que yo a tomar el rumbo de mi vida. Es mi vida, mis valores, mis decisiones y mi futuro y va a ir hacia donde yo quiera girar el timón. Si decido algo es porque tengo mis razones objetivas no emocionales. Si decido irme es porque le encuentro mas valor a alguien o algo, que a lo que Barcelona me pueda ofrecer en sensaciones momentáneas o pasajeras, o sin el sentido de porque o para que. Si no tengo a la persona que comparte mis alegrías tanto como mis fracasos, nada de lo que yo haga tiene la misma importancia solo para mi que cuando comparto con esta persona. Se me cierra la garganta de tantas emociones acumuladas con esta persona. Las lagrimas me salen como pleno tsunami, son inevitables. Momentos que tenían tanto significado, miradas que tenían tantas palabras, besos que tenían tanta seguridad, en nadie mas las he encontrado. Las tenían las tuvieron, las volverán a tener, cuando tu y yo nos volvamos a ver. Entre mas días pasan, mas me olvido de tu presencia, y es la presencia mía la que también olvido. Tu sacas lo mejor de mi, así como yo saco en ti lo mejor de ti, y eso siempre será así hasta el día que se decida querer. En cuanto al área de amor – estoy sin saber la respuesta de que si hacemos todo esto por amor hacia el otro ser humano - o por amor de pasión. Por que puede que hayan dos opciones de amor- una de amigos que se desean lo mejor el uno al otro – o del tipo de amor que da la vida el uno por el otro. -todo depende de cual decida yo tener, no?
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Actions speak LOUDER than words
Good will hunting. Me cambio la vida.
Me ha dejado pensando. En todas las opciones que se me presentan, y el mundo de posibilidades que me abren. Y solo me gustaría compartir todo eso con una persona. Una persona que me trae tanta felicidad, tantas emociones, que me reta a hacer cosas fuera de mi area de comfort. Que me da su opinión clara y sincera del soporte que tiene hacia mi.
#today_ Hoy me fue difícil hacer mi challenge pero por decisión propia. Lo continuaba postergando hasta el final del día y las excusas que me ponía para no cumplirlo en el momento era de que no tengo tiempo, o tengo que hacer otra cosa... Me es difícil encontrar la voluntad de tomar la decisión al instante. Pienso que le resto importancia al dejarlo de ultimo en mi día.
Hoy me siento bien, a pesar de que tenia una fiesta en el piso, decidí hacer mi Challenge antes de salir. Creo que tengo que ser mas fuerte conmigo y mis decisiones y si mis acciones reflejan lo que quiero en el fondo.
Me ha dejado pensando. En todas las opciones que se me presentan, y el mundo de posibilidades que me abren. Y solo me gustaría compartir todo eso con una persona. Una persona que me trae tanta felicidad, tantas emociones, que me reta a hacer cosas fuera de mi area de comfort. Que me da su opinión clara y sincera del soporte que tiene hacia mi.
#today_ Hoy me fue difícil hacer mi challenge pero por decisión propia. Lo continuaba postergando hasta el final del día y las excusas que me ponía para no cumplirlo en el momento era de que no tengo tiempo, o tengo que hacer otra cosa... Me es difícil encontrar la voluntad de tomar la decisión al instante. Pienso que le resto importancia al dejarlo de ultimo en mi día.
Hoy me siento bien, a pesar de que tenia una fiesta en el piso, decidí hacer mi Challenge antes de salir. Creo que tengo que ser mas fuerte conmigo y mis decisiones y si mis acciones reflejan lo que quiero en el fondo.
Week Nov. 23-29, 2014
Wednesday Food for thought
Hoy me hicieron esta pregunta: ¿Qué significa fallarse a si misma? Consecuente con la pregunta ¿si entendía la seriedad de que significaba fallarse a uno mismo?
Entonces, lo pensé mas profundamente.
Este tema, pienso que va directamente relacionado a mis valores y a mi auto-estima. Por ejemplo: si yo me propongo que por una semana voy a hacer ejercicio, porque pienso que la salud es muy importante para mi bienestar- pero llega un día en el cual estoy muy cansada, me justifico diciendo que no pasa nada si ese día no hago ejercicio, y no lo hago - automáticamente quiebro mi palabra. Rompo la credibilidad que tenía en mi. En el momento en el que tome la decisión de que iba a hacer ejercicio todos los días de la semana, tenía que haber tomado en cuenta todos esos factores que pueden influir en mis acciones a futuro. Y aun así enfrentarme con consistencia día a día.
Digo que va directamente relacionado a mis valores porque cuando estoy con alta auto-estima pienso que puedo lograr muchas cosas, y me visualizo cumpliéndolo, por lo tanto la visión que tengo esta dentro de mis valores. Lo que he notado donde fallo, es que muchas veces al estar con buen ritmo hacia mis objetivos hay ciertas circunstancias externas a las que le permito que tenga mas valor que mi propio objetivo, por lo tanto que mi propia palabra. Entonces, cambio mis decisiones, por acciones que no van en línea con mis valores. El por qué no sigo con mi objetivo, y prefiero darle mas autoridad a los demás viene relacionado con que me cuesta decir que no. El por qué me cuesta decir que no, es por que no me gusta hacer sentir incómodos a los demás, y es por eso que prefiero yo darme a torcer, a que los demás se den a torcer. Me puedo imaginar que esto es porque le doy mucha importancia al que dirán de mi si no hago tal cosa, si no voy a tal otro. A veces me sirve como de ‘’distracción’’, para no enfrentarme con ‘’problemas’’, o situaciones en las que yo me sentiré incomoda – que será mas ‘’fácil’’ decir que si, a que enfrentarme con como decir que no.
Volviendo al ejemplo anterior del ejercicio, puede que suene muy insignificante y que en realidad no tiene mucho efecto en nuestras vidas- pero es ahí donde recae nuestra palabra día a día con promesas así de ‘’insignificantes’’ i.e si te mandare el archivo al llegar a casa, si te hablo mas tarde, si nos vemos mañana. Si no le damos la seriedad que se merece a lo que prometemos a los demás y mas importante a nosotros, qué nos hará creer el día en el que quiera empezar algo mas grande (un negocio propio), que realmente lo voy a lograr- si sé que cuando me propongo algo no logro terminarlo o ver los resultados que deseo.
Al final del día la única que se puede juzgar con autenticidad soy yo. Porque nadie conoce mis razones, motivos, ni intenciones del porque quiero cumplir ciertos objetivos. Si habrán personas que no estén de acuerdo con lo que yo quiero hacer, y preferirían que me les uniera a sus planes, pero tengo que aprender a decidir basándome en mis prioridades, que van en línea con mis valores – si es que quiero fortalecer mi palabra, y por lo tanto tener alta auto-estima. Y si quiero hacer esto de ahora en adelante- reflexionar por lo menos unos 3 segundos antes de tomar una decisión que puede cambiar el rumbo de mi objetivo ultimo.
Hoy me hicieron esta pregunta: ¿Qué significa fallarse a si misma? Consecuente con la pregunta ¿si entendía la seriedad de que significaba fallarse a uno mismo?
Entonces, lo pensé mas profundamente.
Este tema, pienso que va directamente relacionado a mis valores y a mi auto-estima. Por ejemplo: si yo me propongo que por una semana voy a hacer ejercicio, porque pienso que la salud es muy importante para mi bienestar- pero llega un día en el cual estoy muy cansada, me justifico diciendo que no pasa nada si ese día no hago ejercicio, y no lo hago - automáticamente quiebro mi palabra. Rompo la credibilidad que tenía en mi. En el momento en el que tome la decisión de que iba a hacer ejercicio todos los días de la semana, tenía que haber tomado en cuenta todos esos factores que pueden influir en mis acciones a futuro. Y aun así enfrentarme con consistencia día a día.
Digo que va directamente relacionado a mis valores porque cuando estoy con alta auto-estima pienso que puedo lograr muchas cosas, y me visualizo cumpliéndolo, por lo tanto la visión que tengo esta dentro de mis valores. Lo que he notado donde fallo, es que muchas veces al estar con buen ritmo hacia mis objetivos hay ciertas circunstancias externas a las que le permito que tenga mas valor que mi propio objetivo, por lo tanto que mi propia palabra. Entonces, cambio mis decisiones, por acciones que no van en línea con mis valores. El por qué no sigo con mi objetivo, y prefiero darle mas autoridad a los demás viene relacionado con que me cuesta decir que no. El por qué me cuesta decir que no, es por que no me gusta hacer sentir incómodos a los demás, y es por eso que prefiero yo darme a torcer, a que los demás se den a torcer. Me puedo imaginar que esto es porque le doy mucha importancia al que dirán de mi si no hago tal cosa, si no voy a tal otro. A veces me sirve como de ‘’distracción’’, para no enfrentarme con ‘’problemas’’, o situaciones en las que yo me sentiré incomoda – que será mas ‘’fácil’’ decir que si, a que enfrentarme con como decir que no.
Volviendo al ejemplo anterior del ejercicio, puede que suene muy insignificante y que en realidad no tiene mucho efecto en nuestras vidas- pero es ahí donde recae nuestra palabra día a día con promesas así de ‘’insignificantes’’ i.e si te mandare el archivo al llegar a casa, si te hablo mas tarde, si nos vemos mañana. Si no le damos la seriedad que se merece a lo que prometemos a los demás y mas importante a nosotros, qué nos hará creer el día en el que quiera empezar algo mas grande (un negocio propio), que realmente lo voy a lograr- si sé que cuando me propongo algo no logro terminarlo o ver los resultados que deseo.
Al final del día la única que se puede juzgar con autenticidad soy yo. Porque nadie conoce mis razones, motivos, ni intenciones del porque quiero cumplir ciertos objetivos. Si habrán personas que no estén de acuerdo con lo que yo quiero hacer, y preferirían que me les uniera a sus planes, pero tengo que aprender a decidir basándome en mis prioridades, que van en línea con mis valores – si es que quiero fortalecer mi palabra, y por lo tanto tener alta auto-estima. Y si quiero hacer esto de ahora en adelante- reflexionar por lo menos unos 3 segundos antes de tomar una decisión que puede cambiar el rumbo de mi objetivo ultimo.
Week Dec. 1 - 7
How you build your castle?
Today was the end of a very special week. It was also, the last day of Personal Awareness course.
This week I went to two meetings that left me thinking about the importance of values. What were my values and how I was acting in accordance with them.
How strongly you hold your values, which unconsciously I imagine is like the vision of the best version of yourself, whom you are proud and admire. Your hero within as Ayn Rand would call it.
In this time of humanity there has come a point where we have the best communication technology available, it has shorten distance like never before seen. But still, we have troubles communicating our needs and wants. We have so many barriers, and false expectations from others that we rather text it, than using our words.
It is a real danger. When we get into a conversation with another person about a subject which is very delicate like abortion or gay marriage, in my opinion most of the time we don't try to understand others, but rather convince them that we are correct, and they are not. Few times you will see someone asking questions of how the person has created those believes. It is important that we understand all the values that makes that person think like they do. Question always their fundamentals, that's probably the way you will help them see they probably don't have many reasons to why believe that.
We should not believe that we are the ones holding the truth, but rather learn in others to question our own believes. This would be share learning. It should be an evolution of thought, I benefit from you, and make my arguments stronger when I don't know the answer to your questions.
What we all are looking for it an objective truth, without any belief that because I say so, the topic discussed is as you see it.
Let's evolve and share our opinions, without judgement with the need to convince others that we are correct. Everyone have their reasons to have their believes, but make them question their fundamentals to see how strongly they think they know what they know.
When you build a castle? From where do you start?
You imagine it at first. Then you work on the cimientos, which are all those values that we hold and the meaning it has for us. Then you create the structure, which is all the self- esteem, later you work on the roof, is to identify all the believes that create barriers for us to grow. We will continue with the outside of the house, this is our shield of protection, we will follow with the doors, who enters our lives and who leaves, the power of our decision we have toward outside circumstances. Windows, our connection with outside and everyone else, how we communicate with others. Followed by the stairs, these are the symbols of connection and union. A house has to have drenage, those are the things we need to let go. The gallery, our power of influence, expectations, perfectionism, self image, how others influence in my actions, strategies of how to live in reality versus an ilusion. Garden, our personal projects that we wish to see grow, could be from families to business. Spaces, the different areas in our lives, family, partner, job, our personal care, priorities. Wheather, the emotional climate, how we control it.
Today was the end of a very special week. It was also, the last day of Personal Awareness course.
This week I went to two meetings that left me thinking about the importance of values. What were my values and how I was acting in accordance with them.
How strongly you hold your values, which unconsciously I imagine is like the vision of the best version of yourself, whom you are proud and admire. Your hero within as Ayn Rand would call it.
In this time of humanity there has come a point where we have the best communication technology available, it has shorten distance like never before seen. But still, we have troubles communicating our needs and wants. We have so many barriers, and false expectations from others that we rather text it, than using our words.
It is a real danger. When we get into a conversation with another person about a subject which is very delicate like abortion or gay marriage, in my opinion most of the time we don't try to understand others, but rather convince them that we are correct, and they are not. Few times you will see someone asking questions of how the person has created those believes. It is important that we understand all the values that makes that person think like they do. Question always their fundamentals, that's probably the way you will help them see they probably don't have many reasons to why believe that.
We should not believe that we are the ones holding the truth, but rather learn in others to question our own believes. This would be share learning. It should be an evolution of thought, I benefit from you, and make my arguments stronger when I don't know the answer to your questions.
What we all are looking for it an objective truth, without any belief that because I say so, the topic discussed is as you see it.
Let's evolve and share our opinions, without judgement with the need to convince others that we are correct. Everyone have their reasons to have their believes, but make them question their fundamentals to see how strongly they think they know what they know.
When you build a castle? From where do you start?
You imagine it at first. Then you work on the cimientos, which are all those values that we hold and the meaning it has for us. Then you create the structure, which is all the self- esteem, later you work on the roof, is to identify all the believes that create barriers for us to grow. We will continue with the outside of the house, this is our shield of protection, we will follow with the doors, who enters our lives and who leaves, the power of our decision we have toward outside circumstances. Windows, our connection with outside and everyone else, how we communicate with others. Followed by the stairs, these are the symbols of connection and union. A house has to have drenage, those are the things we need to let go. The gallery, our power of influence, expectations, perfectionism, self image, how others influence in my actions, strategies of how to live in reality versus an ilusion. Garden, our personal projects that we wish to see grow, could be from families to business. Spaces, the different areas in our lives, family, partner, job, our personal care, priorities. Wheather, the emotional climate, how we control it.
Week Dec. 8 - 14
Clear your thoughts.
Clear your goals.
Clear your self.
In order to be clear with what you want to accomplish in short-term, mid-term, long-term you need to come into clarity with the thoughts that go through your mind every day. You might realize the value of things, by the thoughts you have. The key is not to identify oneself with the thoughts, but to evaluate if those thoughts are really in accordance with reality. For example you might have a thought that says that you are not good at expressing yourself- when you identify yourself with this thoughts you are actually believing you can-t express and therefore act in accordance of that ideal. When you are able to overcome that thought is when you have acted the opposite way. You have decided to look for other options as solutions to overcoming your difficulty.
Having clear goals to what you want to accomplish in life helps you achieve them. Understanding why you want to achieve is the key element to motivation which will keep you going either if the path gets difficult. Deciding for yourself what you want is even more important! Failing because of your errors of what you have chosen is better and more successful than failing according to other standards. When you fail because of your decisions, you will adopt those failures as learnings and will have more experience to tackle the next time any difficulty that might get on your way.
Pausing and reflecting why you do the things you do will give yourself a power of confidence and level of self-esteem very high- because you are aware of your choices and why you chose them, not because others have influenced you to do it.
Believing the labels someone else puts on you - is the worst error you might commit to yourself. No one out there knows you and your experiences to judge you what your problems are or who you are. Don't believe others labels, but listen and understand why they are saying it. Once again, don't identify yourself with labels that doesn't represent you. You'll see that most of the times the limit to achieve, you've believed that it has been yourself. When you are the one deciding all the time to be the one that achieves, it can't win the other part of you that says you won't.
Clear your goals.
Clear your self.
In order to be clear with what you want to accomplish in short-term, mid-term, long-term you need to come into clarity with the thoughts that go through your mind every day. You might realize the value of things, by the thoughts you have. The key is not to identify oneself with the thoughts, but to evaluate if those thoughts are really in accordance with reality. For example you might have a thought that says that you are not good at expressing yourself- when you identify yourself with this thoughts you are actually believing you can-t express and therefore act in accordance of that ideal. When you are able to overcome that thought is when you have acted the opposite way. You have decided to look for other options as solutions to overcoming your difficulty.
Having clear goals to what you want to accomplish in life helps you achieve them. Understanding why you want to achieve is the key element to motivation which will keep you going either if the path gets difficult. Deciding for yourself what you want is even more important! Failing because of your errors of what you have chosen is better and more successful than failing according to other standards. When you fail because of your decisions, you will adopt those failures as learnings and will have more experience to tackle the next time any difficulty that might get on your way.
Pausing and reflecting why you do the things you do will give yourself a power of confidence and level of self-esteem very high- because you are aware of your choices and why you chose them, not because others have influenced you to do it.
Believing the labels someone else puts on you - is the worst error you might commit to yourself. No one out there knows you and your experiences to judge you what your problems are or who you are. Don't believe others labels, but listen and understand why they are saying it. Once again, don't identify yourself with labels that doesn't represent you. You'll see that most of the times the limit to achieve, you've believed that it has been yourself. When you are the one deciding all the time to be the one that achieves, it can't win the other part of you that says you won't.