Week 2
Monday April 7, 2014
How is it humanly possible that every conversation I have is so interconnected with what I study and learn at MPC? Automatically my eyes fill with tears to listen other people’s thought reflected on mine. Is scary. Is magnificent. Is a feeling I would love to feel forever. The doers, the ones changing the status quo, surround me. I am in an era where the awareness of consciousness is hitting our subconscious more than an individual’s feet hits the ground each day. I couldn’t be more proud to be alive in this time, were so many paradigms are changing not only in theory as our history has showed us, but also in every action of the individuals. Yoga, meditation, vegetarianism, self-reliance, independence, humanity, social connections, technology are concepts that are being discussed in everyone’s conversations. Now more than ever we are searching to create more connections throughout knowledge and we would love to put into an efficient and more practical technology in order to save us time, so we can dedicate more time to…ourselves? Is that what we are truly doing now a days? Or is that we are so aware of what others want us to be and to wear, to act, to sing, to eat, that we are turning off our conscious self and awakening more the automatic person that will walk with no end in mind, but on to what others think is valuable for you. No. Society should be searching for efficient ways to substitute human effort that has been employed in an imperfect manner due to the fact that we are not perfect by nature. Machines and technology are more efficient than us in some ways, after all who is the programmer of the machines, yes, us human beings. So we are capable of creating magnificent inventions in order for us to act and discover our purpose here in the world. Until we discover it, we are going to reach eternal salvation and paradise. But if you think you came to this world to suffer, and there is another world out there out of this life that you will reach happiness, if you are obedient with what they say you should be doing and not questioning it, you will give somebody else the responsibility over your actions and decisions and you will never be able to find your voice in this ongoing conversations that have been since over billions of years, before humans were created. I am up for it, I will risk my life pursuing the light to wisdom, to conscious and reason. I am alive, awake and human.
I am just in awe, because I come from a catholic family whose dogma was never allowed to be questioned. I remember as a little kid I couldn’t sleep because questions kept coming to my mind trying to understand the “reasons” of the catholic church. I asked my mom, I remember I even doubted of asking her that question, but remember thinking if it is not now, I will be stuck with that doubt forever. And that was not a good scenario at that time. So I asked her, mom how come if there is only one Jesus who died for us, how is it that he is crucified in so many churches at the same time? And then she gave an explanation, which I felt even more confused than before, but understood that it was all an illusion. Ok I said. And went back to sleep. We should be more careful with what we are teaching future generations, those are the ones ruling the next generations of humanity. We are all a team, and should be striving to reach universal truth. And should all leave a legacy that will help them have a more faster advance in the understanding of our nature.
How is it humanly possible that every conversation I have is so interconnected with what I study and learn at MPC? Automatically my eyes fill with tears to listen other people’s thought reflected on mine. Is scary. Is magnificent. Is a feeling I would love to feel forever. The doers, the ones changing the status quo, surround me. I am in an era where the awareness of consciousness is hitting our subconscious more than an individual’s feet hits the ground each day. I couldn’t be more proud to be alive in this time, were so many paradigms are changing not only in theory as our history has showed us, but also in every action of the individuals. Yoga, meditation, vegetarianism, self-reliance, independence, humanity, social connections, technology are concepts that are being discussed in everyone’s conversations. Now more than ever we are searching to create more connections throughout knowledge and we would love to put into an efficient and more practical technology in order to save us time, so we can dedicate more time to…ourselves? Is that what we are truly doing now a days? Or is that we are so aware of what others want us to be and to wear, to act, to sing, to eat, that we are turning off our conscious self and awakening more the automatic person that will walk with no end in mind, but on to what others think is valuable for you. No. Society should be searching for efficient ways to substitute human effort that has been employed in an imperfect manner due to the fact that we are not perfect by nature. Machines and technology are more efficient than us in some ways, after all who is the programmer of the machines, yes, us human beings. So we are capable of creating magnificent inventions in order for us to act and discover our purpose here in the world. Until we discover it, we are going to reach eternal salvation and paradise. But if you think you came to this world to suffer, and there is another world out there out of this life that you will reach happiness, if you are obedient with what they say you should be doing and not questioning it, you will give somebody else the responsibility over your actions and decisions and you will never be able to find your voice in this ongoing conversations that have been since over billions of years, before humans were created. I am up for it, I will risk my life pursuing the light to wisdom, to conscious and reason. I am alive, awake and human.
I am just in awe, because I come from a catholic family whose dogma was never allowed to be questioned. I remember as a little kid I couldn’t sleep because questions kept coming to my mind trying to understand the “reasons” of the catholic church. I asked my mom, I remember I even doubted of asking her that question, but remember thinking if it is not now, I will be stuck with that doubt forever. And that was not a good scenario at that time. So I asked her, mom how come if there is only one Jesus who died for us, how is it that he is crucified in so many churches at the same time? And then she gave an explanation, which I felt even more confused than before, but understood that it was all an illusion. Ok I said. And went back to sleep. We should be more careful with what we are teaching future generations, those are the ones ruling the next generations of humanity. We are all a team, and should be striving to reach universal truth. And should all leave a legacy that will help them have a more faster advance in the understanding of our nature.
Tuesday April 8, 2014.
How incredible it is when you communicate your ideas, concerns, and struggles with others. In your own nutshell it might seem that you are trapped in a spider web and cannot get out. Your breathing even seemed affected and can barely breath throughout the day while your mind is clammed up with thousands of barriers blocking you from seeing the light.
So yes, I had a rough start today. First my neck hurts a lot, I probably didn’t sleep in a right position. And second I am starting to look Heurística as a thread to my project. Why? Because, I am again choosing to change project. I am no longer wanting to do the app, I was not motivated at all to do it or even make research to have more details and data to base my assumptions because there are already 3 apps that do the same. So, I have decided that this day I was going to get that off my system, and would talk to Bert.
The first attempt I went and said to Bert “Give me some of your time, I am a lost child”. He chuckled and said “Give me 10 minutes”. So as I roamed around the office, I saw a dirty yet interesting title article, “ Sacrificing Understanding in the Pursuit of Knowledge”, by Keith Raniere. I was amazed, grabbed it, read the first page, and remembered I had read this article around a year or so with Juanma Bonifasi when we had a dialogue at the MPC. So I decided it was a good option to photocopy it, so I did and I am planning to read it in the following days. Now that I am more meta-cognitive about the whole process of rational inquiry I will find it more useful.
So with Bert, everytime I am feeling more comfortable to speak to him and be receptive to his advices, I admire him a lot for being very comprehensive and capable of making a lot of connections. So first I made him know that I was not interested in doing the last project I had told him about, the goal pursuer project. He answered that he knew it was not a project for me, and for the capacity I had to offer others. I agreed. I just thought Uh, he should’ve told me that before, but those are the things that a good teacher does, he allows you to trip on the rocks of your road and let’s you discover the other options there are available for you. He remind me after, about the first project I wanted to pursue about a year ago. It is to write the MPC history book, how it came about, the impact on our lives before and after, the experiences we had live to become who we are now and also the different methods of education other authors have been having conversations for so long. Afterwards we talked about the impact MPC can make in other people’s lives, to awaken their conscious and their individuality, one of my main concerns. So, what we came to think was creating a model, structure, where the MPC methodology can be replicable in other places with less resources, having the basics of good facilitators and technology. Our conversation ended with me giving him a hug for rocking. He really does rock.
So the entire day, I just couldn’t stop thinking about the decision and responsibility I have assumed now. I am excited, thrilled, and can’t wait for the journey to advance. I know, I can make a great impact in people’s attitude towards education and knowledge. I love myself for taking this road, this life, and pursuing my interest in the most passionate way possible.
In heuristica I shared with few of my peers, I was ashamed that I have been changing projects for 4th time. And I didn’t know how they will take it. And that was the moment were I realized I am truly in a group of people where I can called them my family. The people whom I spoke to were so proud about my project and said it was a great opportunity of outreach and is a work that will represent our experiences throughout the pioneering years. Almost tears of joy came out. I love them all so much.
How incredible it is when you communicate your ideas, concerns, and struggles with others. In your own nutshell it might seem that you are trapped in a spider web and cannot get out. Your breathing even seemed affected and can barely breath throughout the day while your mind is clammed up with thousands of barriers blocking you from seeing the light.
So yes, I had a rough start today. First my neck hurts a lot, I probably didn’t sleep in a right position. And second I am starting to look Heurística as a thread to my project. Why? Because, I am again choosing to change project. I am no longer wanting to do the app, I was not motivated at all to do it or even make research to have more details and data to base my assumptions because there are already 3 apps that do the same. So, I have decided that this day I was going to get that off my system, and would talk to Bert.
The first attempt I went and said to Bert “Give me some of your time, I am a lost child”. He chuckled and said “Give me 10 minutes”. So as I roamed around the office, I saw a dirty yet interesting title article, “ Sacrificing Understanding in the Pursuit of Knowledge”, by Keith Raniere. I was amazed, grabbed it, read the first page, and remembered I had read this article around a year or so with Juanma Bonifasi when we had a dialogue at the MPC. So I decided it was a good option to photocopy it, so I did and I am planning to read it in the following days. Now that I am more meta-cognitive about the whole process of rational inquiry I will find it more useful.
So with Bert, everytime I am feeling more comfortable to speak to him and be receptive to his advices, I admire him a lot for being very comprehensive and capable of making a lot of connections. So first I made him know that I was not interested in doing the last project I had told him about, the goal pursuer project. He answered that he knew it was not a project for me, and for the capacity I had to offer others. I agreed. I just thought Uh, he should’ve told me that before, but those are the things that a good teacher does, he allows you to trip on the rocks of your road and let’s you discover the other options there are available for you. He remind me after, about the first project I wanted to pursue about a year ago. It is to write the MPC history book, how it came about, the impact on our lives before and after, the experiences we had live to become who we are now and also the different methods of education other authors have been having conversations for so long. Afterwards we talked about the impact MPC can make in other people’s lives, to awaken their conscious and their individuality, one of my main concerns. So, what we came to think was creating a model, structure, where the MPC methodology can be replicable in other places with less resources, having the basics of good facilitators and technology. Our conversation ended with me giving him a hug for rocking. He really does rock.
So the entire day, I just couldn’t stop thinking about the decision and responsibility I have assumed now. I am excited, thrilled, and can’t wait for the journey to advance. I know, I can make a great impact in people’s attitude towards education and knowledge. I love myself for taking this road, this life, and pursuing my interest in the most passionate way possible.
In heuristica I shared with few of my peers, I was ashamed that I have been changing projects for 4th time. And I didn’t know how they will take it. And that was the moment were I realized I am truly in a group of people where I can called them my family. The people whom I spoke to were so proud about my project and said it was a great opportunity of outreach and is a work that will represent our experiences throughout the pioneering years. Almost tears of joy came out. I love them all so much.
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
I am so tired and can’t believe we are almost finishing the week. It has been a great week that has started with ups and downs, but mainly I’ve managed to stay more time on the ups. I discover you are able to see the entire panorama of your life and know what steps to take in order to attain your ends.
Franklin Covey ‘s 7 habits of highly effective people and my neurons finally made the connections in my brain. While talking to three friends today I was able to give them advices on how to act towards certain difficulties they were having, by applying the habits. It amazed me the importance of awakening and reconnecting your consciousness with your self. Because of technology we’ve been so used to react towards it immediately without giving it a thought, and making it the one manipulating our lives. When our cellphone vibrates or rings to a whatsapp message, we automatically stop what we are doing in order to see who is it or to answer immediately. This is the domination of technology over human beings. So what I will now propose to start practicing is do one thing at a time effectively. While you are working on an essay for example, just write the essay, and don’t get distracted by others interruptions. You’ve set your own limitations, and your own boundaries up to what point you want technology to interfere with your consciousness and your daily life activities. It is so important to strengthen ones own consciousness, where we can think about the choices we are going to take and also the impact it will have on the work we stop doing if we answer immediately. There is no such thing that will replace human connections with virtual technological devices. We are in constant need of honest connections through conversations, were we can open ourselves to others and feel emotionally supported.
I am incredibly excited with the project I want to pursue now. I am going to actually create a model to be replicated of the MPC, to spaces where there are less resources and my book will be the eye opener of this new education. I am thinking to start by giving it out to the government here in Guatemala, and later on start implementing the environment in different communities, after it is successful and has acquired a greater impact in the students and they are auto sustainable, I can go and start spreading it around the world so there is greater and greater impact in the education of young individuals who are the future of our world.
I am so tired and can’t believe we are almost finishing the week. It has been a great week that has started with ups and downs, but mainly I’ve managed to stay more time on the ups. I discover you are able to see the entire panorama of your life and know what steps to take in order to attain your ends.
Franklin Covey ‘s 7 habits of highly effective people and my neurons finally made the connections in my brain. While talking to three friends today I was able to give them advices on how to act towards certain difficulties they were having, by applying the habits. It amazed me the importance of awakening and reconnecting your consciousness with your self. Because of technology we’ve been so used to react towards it immediately without giving it a thought, and making it the one manipulating our lives. When our cellphone vibrates or rings to a whatsapp message, we automatically stop what we are doing in order to see who is it or to answer immediately. This is the domination of technology over human beings. So what I will now propose to start practicing is do one thing at a time effectively. While you are working on an essay for example, just write the essay, and don’t get distracted by others interruptions. You’ve set your own limitations, and your own boundaries up to what point you want technology to interfere with your consciousness and your daily life activities. It is so important to strengthen ones own consciousness, where we can think about the choices we are going to take and also the impact it will have on the work we stop doing if we answer immediately. There is no such thing that will replace human connections with virtual technological devices. We are in constant need of honest connections through conversations, were we can open ourselves to others and feel emotionally supported.
I am incredibly excited with the project I want to pursue now. I am going to actually create a model to be replicated of the MPC, to spaces where there are less resources and my book will be the eye opener of this new education. I am thinking to start by giving it out to the government here in Guatemala, and later on start implementing the environment in different communities, after it is successful and has acquired a greater impact in the students and they are auto sustainable, I can go and start spreading it around the world so there is greater and greater impact in the education of young individuals who are the future of our world.
Thursday April 10, 2014
The day started out with Kata’s morning meeting: painting Easter eggs! The classroom was beautiful decorated with all the materials needed for the activity. The ones who came in early participated in helping Kata prepare the materials. I felt completely like a child. Playing with colors, and other ingredients for the color pill to dissolve in hot water. He had color green, blue, pink and yellow. I did around 3-4 eggs and they all were very interesting. My hands were all painted with different colors, and I enjoyed being all painted, again I felt like a child. I am still a child. Who said that by turning one year older you already have the permission to act as an “adult”, whatever that means. I rather be a child, wonderful, adventurous and imaginative. I try things for the first time, I use all my senses to experience it, no one else tells me how it smells, feels, or tastes like, I can do it on my own. I am celebrating the world of possibilities that I am experimenting, if things don’t work out, I give it another try until I am satisfied with the work done. Most of the time that works out for me. J
We had a very interesting discussion about the standards of academic excellence, a document written by UFM founders. I am impressed really; they had their ideals well established. But there is always something and Mpc’er can add to it. We all gave great advices, and I noticed that most of our comments were pro the work of the community and culture building. That is what all it should be about, people seeking an end, where each of them use their own means that will take their best of their abilities to stand out in a world that needs them to prosper and attain a closer taste to what heaven can taste.
After that, we were with a clear mindset, and we followed by scheduling out the duties done at the end of the semester. It caught my attention our ability to listen to other’s suggestions and working on something that will benefit better our time management. We are very aware of all the flaws that we were lacking semesters before. I feel very confident to finish all of my duties in order to get to the standard I wish to have.
For our human action dialogue it was great. Some of us wrote questions in a Googledoc, which helped us start the conversation. Bert asked questions that lead most of the dialogue. I learned the importance of prices in a free system that reflects the actions of the individuals that value certain things over the others. Besides the importance of the entrepreneurs that is inherent in every individual that speculates on his actions of what will bring him greater satisfaction. The thing here is to see the needs of the consumers and obtain profit from it. In order for there to be an economy of monetary calculation.
The day started out with Kata’s morning meeting: painting Easter eggs! The classroom was beautiful decorated with all the materials needed for the activity. The ones who came in early participated in helping Kata prepare the materials. I felt completely like a child. Playing with colors, and other ingredients for the color pill to dissolve in hot water. He had color green, blue, pink and yellow. I did around 3-4 eggs and they all were very interesting. My hands were all painted with different colors, and I enjoyed being all painted, again I felt like a child. I am still a child. Who said that by turning one year older you already have the permission to act as an “adult”, whatever that means. I rather be a child, wonderful, adventurous and imaginative. I try things for the first time, I use all my senses to experience it, no one else tells me how it smells, feels, or tastes like, I can do it on my own. I am celebrating the world of possibilities that I am experimenting, if things don’t work out, I give it another try until I am satisfied with the work done. Most of the time that works out for me. J
We had a very interesting discussion about the standards of academic excellence, a document written by UFM founders. I am impressed really; they had their ideals well established. But there is always something and Mpc’er can add to it. We all gave great advices, and I noticed that most of our comments were pro the work of the community and culture building. That is what all it should be about, people seeking an end, where each of them use their own means that will take their best of their abilities to stand out in a world that needs them to prosper and attain a closer taste to what heaven can taste.
After that, we were with a clear mindset, and we followed by scheduling out the duties done at the end of the semester. It caught my attention our ability to listen to other’s suggestions and working on something that will benefit better our time management. We are very aware of all the flaws that we were lacking semesters before. I feel very confident to finish all of my duties in order to get to the standard I wish to have.
For our human action dialogue it was great. Some of us wrote questions in a Googledoc, which helped us start the conversation. Bert asked questions that lead most of the dialogue. I learned the importance of prices in a free system that reflects the actions of the individuals that value certain things over the others. Besides the importance of the entrepreneurs that is inherent in every individual that speculates on his actions of what will bring him greater satisfaction. The thing here is to see the needs of the consumers and obtain profit from it. In order for there to be an economy of monetary calculation.
Week 3
Monday April 21st 2014
It is good to come back from vacations, and see my friends again it seems like I’ve been away for so long. I have so much that I want to tell them, and also to hear about their experiences this vacations.
So we started out with dancing. Grace prepared a very cool dance for us, so we started out the day with a fresh and clean state. I was flattered with a comment from Chacho who said I had a fresh face. I guess it was all the rest I had this week, even though many things didn’t turned out the way I expected, it turned out even better.
I was glad today in the sense that I came to the realization that I am surrounded by the doers, the people that are shaping the future, and I am one of them. I am so excited for the new readings we started today. We started watching a documentary, commanding heights, which tell the story of the clash of economic ideas, and the constant struggle between the free market and socialist ideals. It amazed me, especially the fact that we don’t learn from history, and it is because probably we don’t understand it. It seems like we are not interested in progressing, but rather want a society of equality were nobody progress at all. Where does this logic come from, really? I don’t get it. Who is behind all this?
Systems of Survival is the new book we are reading with some of my classmates who already read Future and Its Enemies. This book is written by Jane Jacobs, who writes about two moral systems, and how to act in every situation when dealt with one’s morality and knowing what is right to do.
How to write a movie in 21 days is another book I started reading today. I am amazed as well, after all is a story about me, I am the hero of my movie, of my life and I am about to write a movie about it. I love the MPC, for introducing me to the greatness of being alive. Every experience, book, conversation, new learning I have is shaping me to the women I am becoming, I love it, every day a little bit more.
It is good to come back from vacations, and see my friends again it seems like I’ve been away for so long. I have so much that I want to tell them, and also to hear about their experiences this vacations.
So we started out with dancing. Grace prepared a very cool dance for us, so we started out the day with a fresh and clean state. I was flattered with a comment from Chacho who said I had a fresh face. I guess it was all the rest I had this week, even though many things didn’t turned out the way I expected, it turned out even better.
I was glad today in the sense that I came to the realization that I am surrounded by the doers, the people that are shaping the future, and I am one of them. I am so excited for the new readings we started today. We started watching a documentary, commanding heights, which tell the story of the clash of economic ideas, and the constant struggle between the free market and socialist ideals. It amazed me, especially the fact that we don’t learn from history, and it is because probably we don’t understand it. It seems like we are not interested in progressing, but rather want a society of equality were nobody progress at all. Where does this logic come from, really? I don’t get it. Who is behind all this?
Systems of Survival is the new book we are reading with some of my classmates who already read Future and Its Enemies. This book is written by Jane Jacobs, who writes about two moral systems, and how to act in every situation when dealt with one’s morality and knowing what is right to do.
How to write a movie in 21 days is another book I started reading today. I am amazed as well, after all is a story about me, I am the hero of my movie, of my life and I am about to write a movie about it. I love the MPC, for introducing me to the greatness of being alive. Every experience, book, conversation, new learning I have is shaping me to the women I am becoming, I love it, every day a little bit more.
Tuesday April 22, 2014
The importance of feeling freedom within a framework that enables you to become responsible of your actions is the best feeling one can have. Today the entire day had that flavor, where I was able to keep up with my readings, due to the fact that my mom was coming this afternoon and I was not going to be able to dedicate time to MPC work, I decided to finish the work beforehand. And it is truly amazing that I have taken such responsibility of my decisions and that by having no authority constantly behind my backs I still get the work done, specially because I want to do it. And probably that’s the most important step a student might take, it is to do things for his own benefit, for his own interest, and find out that others are out there to help you answer and overcome the struggles you find in your path. I am in an environment where this air of free and responsible individuals is taken seriously, we don’t wait for authorities, but rather rely on our will and in our confidence that we will get the work done with high quality.
The importance of feeling freedom within a framework that enables you to become responsible of your actions is the best feeling one can have. Today the entire day had that flavor, where I was able to keep up with my readings, due to the fact that my mom was coming this afternoon and I was not going to be able to dedicate time to MPC work, I decided to finish the work beforehand. And it is truly amazing that I have taken such responsibility of my decisions and that by having no authority constantly behind my backs I still get the work done, specially because I want to do it. And probably that’s the most important step a student might take, it is to do things for his own benefit, for his own interest, and find out that others are out there to help you answer and overcome the struggles you find in your path. I am in an environment where this air of free and responsible individuals is taken seriously, we don’t wait for authorities, but rather rely on our will and in our confidence that we will get the work done with high quality.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Bounded by so many rules.
So many? Are they? Which ones? The rules that tell me that I already think that I know that I have complete certainty of what life should all be about, but then get reminded by the one authority of my life that is not that way. It's another way, their way. But after all what would be dependency? And who is to take your life decisions, the one who is paying your bills? Probably. They have certain responsibility to what knowledge you are going to live by, what if it is not the best one “what if”? The real reason is the fear, to live with a different mindset or principles than they. What’s the big problem about that? The least you can do is try a different method, try if things work out for you better one way or another, you’ll never know until you try. It is so hard for me at this time, to try to be the one person I imagine to be in the future already without taking the first steps. I am so scared to the real world, this world I live in feels comfortable but at times it doesn’t. Why I am still relying onto someone else paying for the extra things in life I want to taste, but yet not give any effort now, but better later? Is there a true will then to go, to risk it all and to try? The worse thing that can happen is that I am not going to reach it. So what? It wouldn’t be this year, but next one for sure. The world as you know it, will continue to be exactly the same. Only difference, that you’ve tried to do it on your own. Face your fears, embrace them, overcome them, it isn’t until you try and throw yourself out there that you’ll grow. You learned it today in the activity of the ropes, and what was your most important comment for everyone else? The feeling of satisfaction that you receive after accomplishing something, is greater than the one you have when you don’t. You have plenty of time, things will work out fine if you put EFFORT. IT TAKES COURAGE TO GROW UP AND BECOME WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
One asks, is it possible to be free? Is it possible for us as we are, conditioned, shaped by every influence, by propaganda, by the books we read, the cinemas, the radios, the magazines all impinging on the mind, shaping it to live in this world completely free, not only consciously, but at the very roots of our being? That, it seems to me, is the challenge, is the only issue. Because if one is not free, there is no love; there is jealousy, anxiety, fear, domination, the pursuit of pleasure, sexually or otherwise. If one is not free one cannot see clearly and there is no sense of beauty.
After reflecting on this quote, I came to realize that to become free, I need to get rid from the dependencies I’ve created with my authorities, which seemed to be monetary. And that will truly demonstrate me, who I am and what obstacles I encounter and what obstacles I try to avoid when I am in another zone, outside my comfort zone.
Bounded by so many rules.
So many? Are they? Which ones? The rules that tell me that I already think that I know that I have complete certainty of what life should all be about, but then get reminded by the one authority of my life that is not that way. It's another way, their way. But after all what would be dependency? And who is to take your life decisions, the one who is paying your bills? Probably. They have certain responsibility to what knowledge you are going to live by, what if it is not the best one “what if”? The real reason is the fear, to live with a different mindset or principles than they. What’s the big problem about that? The least you can do is try a different method, try if things work out for you better one way or another, you’ll never know until you try. It is so hard for me at this time, to try to be the one person I imagine to be in the future already without taking the first steps. I am so scared to the real world, this world I live in feels comfortable but at times it doesn’t. Why I am still relying onto someone else paying for the extra things in life I want to taste, but yet not give any effort now, but better later? Is there a true will then to go, to risk it all and to try? The worse thing that can happen is that I am not going to reach it. So what? It wouldn’t be this year, but next one for sure. The world as you know it, will continue to be exactly the same. Only difference, that you’ve tried to do it on your own. Face your fears, embrace them, overcome them, it isn’t until you try and throw yourself out there that you’ll grow. You learned it today in the activity of the ropes, and what was your most important comment for everyone else? The feeling of satisfaction that you receive after accomplishing something, is greater than the one you have when you don’t. You have plenty of time, things will work out fine if you put EFFORT. IT TAKES COURAGE TO GROW UP AND BECOME WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
One asks, is it possible to be free? Is it possible for us as we are, conditioned, shaped by every influence, by propaganda, by the books we read, the cinemas, the radios, the magazines all impinging on the mind, shaping it to live in this world completely free, not only consciously, but at the very roots of our being? That, it seems to me, is the challenge, is the only issue. Because if one is not free, there is no love; there is jealousy, anxiety, fear, domination, the pursuit of pleasure, sexually or otherwise. If one is not free one cannot see clearly and there is no sense of beauty.
After reflecting on this quote, I came to realize that to become free, I need to get rid from the dependencies I’ve created with my authorities, which seemed to be monetary. And that will truly demonstrate me, who I am and what obstacles I encounter and what obstacles I try to avoid when I am in another zone, outside my comfort zone.
Thursday April 24, 2014
Own Road
When one let’s things flow, things begin to fit perfectly in their own jigsaw puzzle. The puzzle that after a while you see it from on top and it is actually leading you somewhere, the place were you are meant to be and make an impact in the world. After 2 years of the MPC, I am in that state of mind, in that process of allowing things flow and not forcing them to happen in my way, accepting others comments and allowing for the energy to flow. This was an important day, because my mom met the MPC, my classmates and talked with Bert! Her main struggle was not so much about the career perse, but what future waited me when I was to get out. As my mom got out the room, I went to the little terrace downstairs to talk, I can’t explain the happiness she was radiating she was excited about me being here, and even about my future. She understand that this program is a means to our own ends, it was great for her to see it this way, and accept that I might need another financing for another career later on hehe. Later on, I realized many of my classmates were dealing with same issues regarding parents, they were questioning their authority and were having huge difficult conversations with one another. I talked to Bert of it, because he said I should talked to Grace that she was still having difficulties with her parents, I told him it was not only her now, but many were in the same struggle. So we came up with ideas about having a dinner or a workshop for surviving parents. And I now is difficult to question what they’ve always told you because in a way they have lived through many experiences that they’ve learned from, and they don’t want us to commit the same mistakes as they did on their journey. But they need to understand, that each of us learns by experiencing in our own lives, and they have to let us discover it so we would understand it with clarity. Just having my mother understand that philosophy brings tears to my face, it’s the one most important step to become free. My mother offered me a trip to Europe in September, and suggested me that I could do my internship over there, I was thrilled with joy because I remembered about a college in France that was doing a similar learning environment as us. I talked Bert about it and he thought about the same thing and he offered me to contact the people in charge of it. Ha. Afterwards he said he told Karen today that he wishes to have me for next year students facilitate their learning experiences. I told him I would love to. So this resumes the own road which I’ve decided to take, and to confront, to assume the responsibility of my decisions and carve the road towards my own happiness and success.
Own Road
When one let’s things flow, things begin to fit perfectly in their own jigsaw puzzle. The puzzle that after a while you see it from on top and it is actually leading you somewhere, the place were you are meant to be and make an impact in the world. After 2 years of the MPC, I am in that state of mind, in that process of allowing things flow and not forcing them to happen in my way, accepting others comments and allowing for the energy to flow. This was an important day, because my mom met the MPC, my classmates and talked with Bert! Her main struggle was not so much about the career perse, but what future waited me when I was to get out. As my mom got out the room, I went to the little terrace downstairs to talk, I can’t explain the happiness she was radiating she was excited about me being here, and even about my future. She understand that this program is a means to our own ends, it was great for her to see it this way, and accept that I might need another financing for another career later on hehe. Later on, I realized many of my classmates were dealing with same issues regarding parents, they were questioning their authority and were having huge difficult conversations with one another. I talked to Bert of it, because he said I should talked to Grace that she was still having difficulties with her parents, I told him it was not only her now, but many were in the same struggle. So we came up with ideas about having a dinner or a workshop for surviving parents. And I now is difficult to question what they’ve always told you because in a way they have lived through many experiences that they’ve learned from, and they don’t want us to commit the same mistakes as they did on their journey. But they need to understand, that each of us learns by experiencing in our own lives, and they have to let us discover it so we would understand it with clarity. Just having my mother understand that philosophy brings tears to my face, it’s the one most important step to become free. My mother offered me a trip to Europe in September, and suggested me that I could do my internship over there, I was thrilled with joy because I remembered about a college in France that was doing a similar learning environment as us. I talked Bert about it and he thought about the same thing and he offered me to contact the people in charge of it. Ha. Afterwards he said he told Karen today that he wishes to have me for next year students facilitate their learning experiences. I told him I would love to. So this resumes the own road which I’ve decided to take, and to confront, to assume the responsibility of my decisions and carve the road towards my own happiness and success.
Monday april 28th, 2014
Open to vulnerability
Today after giving my public presentation of Covey to the class, I felt amazed at how I was feeling very big and powerful. At the moment while I was giving the presentation my eyes filled with tears, and I immediately broke up into tears. I still have no idea why I’ve cry over it. The inner part of I, probably knows, because it was a day were I learned so much about myself and about others, that I really treasured it in my heart. The feedback I received as soon as I ended was filled with much love and care, almost everyone gave me something to think about myself. Comments like: I was a great leader with the capacity to push everyone to their own capacities, as well as I am very brave in the way I see my problems and the learning I have from them, as being a person that always have a positive attitude to the group and constantly believes in the power of accomplishing things. All of these things are probably things that I know for myself, but it is easier to express them when someone else is doing an activity. Someone also told me that I have all this attitudes inside of me, what it took only was a spark to think positively believing that I can accomplish it. Also I was told that I had inside of me a spirit of a very crazy scientific child, that made me laugh.
Sharing this with others made me realize the value I have and the power of my writing, which I can influence many people in the process of finding myself. And what better what to do that than writing down my learnings as I’ve done it so far with the daily reflections?
Today we probably had one of the best dialogues, which was a reading by Rothbard. The dialogue came with the three possibilities of trying to explain the private property rights, which first was the emotional, the utilitarian and the natural rights. We spent a lot of time in the utilitarian point of view trying to define act in itself, and how the utilitarian didn’t had a yardstick to measure acts in themselves whether they are right or wrong. So this actually triggered my mind, and made me question why I do believe certain things are good or bad, if I know by experience or because someone else have told me. I am starting to be more aware to the daily activities which I interfere in the life of others without being invited to, and one thinks because of my moral philosophy that I am adding value to them, when truth is I probably aren’t.
Open to vulnerability
Today after giving my public presentation of Covey to the class, I felt amazed at how I was feeling very big and powerful. At the moment while I was giving the presentation my eyes filled with tears, and I immediately broke up into tears. I still have no idea why I’ve cry over it. The inner part of I, probably knows, because it was a day were I learned so much about myself and about others, that I really treasured it in my heart. The feedback I received as soon as I ended was filled with much love and care, almost everyone gave me something to think about myself. Comments like: I was a great leader with the capacity to push everyone to their own capacities, as well as I am very brave in the way I see my problems and the learning I have from them, as being a person that always have a positive attitude to the group and constantly believes in the power of accomplishing things. All of these things are probably things that I know for myself, but it is easier to express them when someone else is doing an activity. Someone also told me that I have all this attitudes inside of me, what it took only was a spark to think positively believing that I can accomplish it. Also I was told that I had inside of me a spirit of a very crazy scientific child, that made me laugh.
Sharing this with others made me realize the value I have and the power of my writing, which I can influence many people in the process of finding myself. And what better what to do that than writing down my learnings as I’ve done it so far with the daily reflections?
Today we probably had one of the best dialogues, which was a reading by Rothbard. The dialogue came with the three possibilities of trying to explain the private property rights, which first was the emotional, the utilitarian and the natural rights. We spent a lot of time in the utilitarian point of view trying to define act in itself, and how the utilitarian didn’t had a yardstick to measure acts in themselves whether they are right or wrong. So this actually triggered my mind, and made me question why I do believe certain things are good or bad, if I know by experience or because someone else have told me. I am starting to be more aware to the daily activities which I interfere in the life of others without being invited to, and one thinks because of my moral philosophy that I am adding value to them, when truth is I probably aren’t.
Tuesday April 29. 2014
Breakdown
I'm really in a point in my life where I don’t know why I have taken the decisions I’ve taken, or worse, I am uncertain if they are the best for what I want to do in my life. But there is a constant nagging in my head with the same thoughts, what if’s? am I really taking the victim role in the world? And focusing on the side that I need to suffer? Am I really suffering? What environments I feel like home? Comfortable and happy? Where are the places where I feel uncomfortable, challenged? Which is one is better than the other one? What moral philosophy have I adopted to believe in. I'm with a straight face, nor happy nor sad, nor nothing. I am just really being myself, naked self, because who do I have to talk about all these deals, and to give me the correct answer, rather than myself? How would I be allowed to differ between the correct and the not so correct. Can I? What are my main questions?
What I don’t know is the path of my future, in a minute I can disappear from this earth, and haven’t accomplish to be an extension of myself, where I can be replicated, for others to be great in their lives. I am sad. I am sad that I don’t know what the f-%* I'm waiting to happen in order to see myself acting towards my goals. What I am trying to postpone? What for? What I am being afraid of? Tell me. Answer me.
Breakdown
I'm really in a point in my life where I don’t know why I have taken the decisions I’ve taken, or worse, I am uncertain if they are the best for what I want to do in my life. But there is a constant nagging in my head with the same thoughts, what if’s? am I really taking the victim role in the world? And focusing on the side that I need to suffer? Am I really suffering? What environments I feel like home? Comfortable and happy? Where are the places where I feel uncomfortable, challenged? Which is one is better than the other one? What moral philosophy have I adopted to believe in. I'm with a straight face, nor happy nor sad, nor nothing. I am just really being myself, naked self, because who do I have to talk about all these deals, and to give me the correct answer, rather than myself? How would I be allowed to differ between the correct and the not so correct. Can I? What are my main questions?
What I don’t know is the path of my future, in a minute I can disappear from this earth, and haven’t accomplish to be an extension of myself, where I can be replicated, for others to be great in their lives. I am sad. I am sad that I don’t know what the f-%* I'm waiting to happen in order to see myself acting towards my goals. What I am trying to postpone? What for? What I am being afraid of? Tell me. Answer me.
Wednesday April 30. 2014
Life's Puzzle
Things fall perfectly when you switch your spark of suffering to positivity. As I woke up today, after crying yesterday all my fears, I woke up and thought for a minute and then all of a sudden the idea I had been looking came to me, as something I always knew, but hadn’t connected the dots. The idea is to write a book about finding one’s own passion by self-discovery and confronting the problem of the actual educational system that shuts down individuality which is the most important of all, owning ourselves and recognizing our differences and similarities as a whole. I was happy because I truly believe in these ideals and I think I will get very inspired through my experiences and the knowledge I already posses in order to influence many in thinking on their own and making their lives the best out of it.
At MPC today our proposal of changing rooms with the first years got rejected. Unfortunately they didn’t see the benefits of sharing rooms for only 4 days, whatever that meant. So we all had to suck it, and remain on our little small space. Ugh. We took it graciously and understand that we didn’t had much to offer them back. So there’s a lesson to learn: whenever you are negotiating, add more value to the other group than the one you are exchanging for, and try to listen to them more rather than just arguing why we think ours is the best option.
Another interesting conversation went on today at the MPC, with Alberto Giron. He talked about the past, and who owns it? He talked about the objects in the museums that are “sold” as a national heritage, but really it isn’t, and they are only to be presumed about. He said, we need to get all these paintings to people that will take good care of them, and not loose them like almost 200 famous art works that have been magically lost in Madrid. The people that have bought the belief that we as citizens have the rights to these property, are wrong, one person that owns them can sell them, move them, and exchange them, and this is not the case for any citizen to do with the works of art. He is suggesting that we should start loosing the identity because whoever calls for the nationality is taking into his hand a history baggage, that he hasn’t been part of, nor his parents.
I reflected on his comments and thought at first he was talking nonsense. But I figured out so many meaning on his claims that I was missing at first glance. First, we are all citizens of the world, we are able to move from place to place, to learn any new language to incorporate to our conversations and the only one’s placing limits on us are ourselves. We are living in a world that information travels at a very fast rate, and we don’t realize the importance on these information’s because of the “cultural, territorial divisions” created by a superior “knows it all”. Globalization have played a very large role in our development as a culture of Earth, and I believe it should be taken into our own hands the future we would like to see happening without the interference of people that claim that have all the knowledge of man on the spot.
Life's Puzzle
Things fall perfectly when you switch your spark of suffering to positivity. As I woke up today, after crying yesterday all my fears, I woke up and thought for a minute and then all of a sudden the idea I had been looking came to me, as something I always knew, but hadn’t connected the dots. The idea is to write a book about finding one’s own passion by self-discovery and confronting the problem of the actual educational system that shuts down individuality which is the most important of all, owning ourselves and recognizing our differences and similarities as a whole. I was happy because I truly believe in these ideals and I think I will get very inspired through my experiences and the knowledge I already posses in order to influence many in thinking on their own and making their lives the best out of it.
At MPC today our proposal of changing rooms with the first years got rejected. Unfortunately they didn’t see the benefits of sharing rooms for only 4 days, whatever that meant. So we all had to suck it, and remain on our little small space. Ugh. We took it graciously and understand that we didn’t had much to offer them back. So there’s a lesson to learn: whenever you are negotiating, add more value to the other group than the one you are exchanging for, and try to listen to them more rather than just arguing why we think ours is the best option.
Another interesting conversation went on today at the MPC, with Alberto Giron. He talked about the past, and who owns it? He talked about the objects in the museums that are “sold” as a national heritage, but really it isn’t, and they are only to be presumed about. He said, we need to get all these paintings to people that will take good care of them, and not loose them like almost 200 famous art works that have been magically lost in Madrid. The people that have bought the belief that we as citizens have the rights to these property, are wrong, one person that owns them can sell them, move them, and exchange them, and this is not the case for any citizen to do with the works of art. He is suggesting that we should start loosing the identity because whoever calls for the nationality is taking into his hand a history baggage, that he hasn’t been part of, nor his parents.
I reflected on his comments and thought at first he was talking nonsense. But I figured out so many meaning on his claims that I was missing at first glance. First, we are all citizens of the world, we are able to move from place to place, to learn any new language to incorporate to our conversations and the only one’s placing limits on us are ourselves. We are living in a world that information travels at a very fast rate, and we don’t realize the importance on these information’s because of the “cultural, territorial divisions” created by a superior “knows it all”. Globalization have played a very large role in our development as a culture of Earth, and I believe it should be taken into our own hands the future we would like to see happening without the interference of people that claim that have all the knowledge of man on the spot.